Life as a roll coaster

Well since my grandma has passed and my grandfather was seriously sick we have had trial after trial. It has truly been a test of faith, patience and understanding with God. I was reading a general conference talk by Henry B Eyring in which he stated "If the foundation of faith is not embedded in our hearts, the power to endure will crumble." and "My mother fought cancer for nearly 10 years. Treatments and surgeries and finally confinement to her bed were some of her trials.
I remember my father saying as he watched her take her last breath, “A little girl has gone home to rest.”
One of the speakers at her funeral was President Spencer W. Kimball. Among the tributes he paid, I remember one that went something like this: “Some of you may have thought that Mildred suffered so long and so much because of something she had done wrong that required the trials.” He then said, “No, it was that God just wanted her to be polished a little more.” I remember at the time thinking, “If a woman that good needed that much polishing, what is ahead for me?”
If we have faith in Jesus Christ, the hardest as well as the easiest times in life can be a blessing. (May 2012 Ensign, Mountains to Climb, Henry B. Eyring)" which in reading that I was so touched by the spirit it brought tears to my eyes and make me truly look at the trials we are enduring as something that I will look back on and say it polished me to be with my heavenly father in the celestial kingdom. I have to work on my foundation (faith) as its so hard to say faithful when u need to the most during the trying times. I pray that I can truly be successful during these times and seek him all the times but more so during this time for safety and comfort. It is interesting that I was reading another talk that brought up how Satan gets us to fall and it really opened my eyes. It said that he will work on you through small things to get the door open like breaking sabbath, not doing FHE, not doing family prayer and scripture reading, not doing our personal reading and prayer. All of these things we tend to think well I just missed that one day or I just really needed to go to the store but opening yourself open with something small is how he attacks you with something big. For me and my family we do struggle with FHE, family scripture and prayer time so Satan has had the door open and our trials have gotten worse so I am doing all my power to make sure I am doing those things so not only I can get rid of Satan but God can aid me in the recovery of the trials we are now going through. I pray for comfort as I know I need these trials. Well I just wanted to share this as there maybe someone who is going through something like this too and the spirit is wanting me to share.